Here We Go Again

Much drama this week with my ex as she refused to follow custody agreement and keep my daughter for a week. I guess in turn I get to keep her a week as well. Sadly I had to bend over backwards explaining and reasoning with her. Why do I have to be so open and flexible while she hides and doesn't communicate. I had told her no as I had plans this week for my brothers birthday as well as friends wanted to see Natalia this weekend. Now I hope my last week here I don't spend with the police looking for her and instead spend my time sharing with my daughter. I again called the police to file a report and as usual they didn't care and just gave me a report number. Now I hope the judge sees this breach of the agreement and punishes her. I wonder far too often why these things happen to me. Does God think I'm that strong? I know I can deal with it but I would like to be at peace for a bit. I do know it is not a punishment because I did nothing wrong. Maybe it is God's way of letting Natalia really be with me and have me show her the right things in life alone with no person in between.

"Not everyone born free and equal, as the Constitution says, but everyone made equal."

- Ray Bradbury - Fahrenheit 451

Started to read The Long War and sorry to say I lost interest in the book. I will however try to plow through it and finish it. While browsing the book store I saw the 60th Anniversary edition of Fahrenheit 451 and decided to pick it up and re read it again. I find this another book everyone should read. Not long and its ideas are not far off as so many people do not choose to read but just watch TV and believe what is being pumped into them. I see people no longer question or have thoughts of things but just follow the masses. The quote above symbolizes that as one of the things Bradbury points out in the book is that we are made to all be the same. No one question or try to be different.

I'm always plugging the No Agenda show and well I know it is too much for many to swallow but that is who I am. I want to point out that the clip show and the latest shows were very good. I am hoping John gives more history lessons and points us to different pieces of literature for us to read further. His small talk about Karl Marx has informed me and gives me the urge to read more about this writer whom so many don't know the truth about.

In a few weeks I will be heading to my first real duty with the Navy. I hope my remaining time here is spend in peace. The time given between notice to deployment is actually good as now you come to terms and are prepared to do the job. I have in my life been away from home in foreign lands many times for this amount of time so the feeling is not alien to me. Excited in the sense that I get to do something that so many people never do. Done many things in my life so many never dream of doing. So many just sit at home and live a simple life that makes no difference or impact. I am happy to say I am not that person. I will be honored to do the job required and am always proud of the many "Docs" out there doing the job and sacrificing. That is the biggest part. The part so many never see which is the sacrifice they make by leaving family behind and their comforts of home to do a job. The many people that never appreciate it because they can never understand or comprehend of what it is to have honor, courage and commitment. I hope I get through processing and get the chance to do something for my country and myself. It is these experiences that I hope to pass on to Natalia in principle.

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